"Planned" snacks realization
This platform still confuses me so I didn't know where to put a comment rather than a question. Forgive me if this is not the correct place.
This morning I felt I was hungry (how's that for making sure I cover all bases? Defensive maybe. Lol)
Anyway after yesterday's lesson I realized I should have a "planned"'snack to ward off the compulsive eating later. As I was eating my snack I realized that I felt "cheated" and it wasn't "fair". I thought I'm feeling full now and I've eaten more calories (how can we get that out of our minds arghh) so that's less I can have for lunch or later. I would rather have been celebrating that I was fueling ny body to prevent binging and I also could have rejoiced in knowing that this was false thinking. I am free to eat as many calories as I want but the question really is do I want them or something else. I also think this was my inner child sort of trying to have a temper tantrum and "fearing" it was going to be cut off later - cut off from food or attention? That is the real question). This is the first time I've paid attention to anything like this so I'm taking it as progress!
ahhh@Terrie Wurzbacher, yesssss!!! thank you so much for sharing this. great work and awareness. i so totally hear you and all of this makes so much sense. i see you navigating this path and doing your best to meet your needs. it isn't so much about "having the right answer" (as it sounds like you know), as much as it is about you being open to asking the questions (which you are doing). i absolutely AGREE that this is PROGRESS because you are deepening the connection with yourself (physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually), etc. and it is an ongoing practice/journey. i honor for you making room for all of these "parts" to coexist.
if you have any specific questions about this experience (or anythign else), i would be happy to talk more about it on our call this evening. looking forward to it and i am celebrating you! XOXO